Where did the summer go? It just seemed to fly by so quick this year! Maybe I'm just not ready for the warmth to end, or maybe I'm not ready for the snow that I know is just around the corner. Or maybe, just maybe I wasn't ready for my oldest, my first baby, to go to kindergarten. I usually love the beginning of fall, the crispness in the air and the change in the leaves invigorates me. But for whatever reason, this fall seems so bitter sweet to me. It just seemed to come all too soon.
I just signed the forms for becoming a "room mother" for the first of I'm sure many times. And I just sobbed after leaving my kindergartener at school for the first time. This is a fall of firsts for me and I'm sure it will be one I always remember. So now I am left with just two little ones at home and it's a strange odd feeling. I keep turning around with a feeling like I'm missing something...and I am. But when he gets off that bus he's just so excited that it makes up for the sadness. I'm sure in a few months it will all seem normal, but for right now I'm just left with this uneasy feeling for a few hours each day.
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Even though my kids are older and I should be used to it by now, I still turn around and think that something's missing. I go to talk to them, or think that they're sleeping-in, only to realize that it's just me here now. It does take some getting used to, but it makes the homecoming so special!
ReplyDeleteI still am not used to it! It's been months, and it is still just as strange. I can't imagine what it will feel like when I turn around and they are all gone....
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